Chester Bennington left us in 2017
It has been just over three years since Chester Bennington left the world on his own terms. He was 41 when he took his own life. Now, the first wife of the Linkin Park frontman is breaking her silence. In Samantha Bennington’s new book, she shares the pain she experienced after his loss. And the healing process which. She’s hoping this helps others who have lost loved ones by suicide.
In her Bennington’s first memoir, Falling Love Notes: Memories of a Rock Star Wife, which drops next month, writes of the day she and their son, Draven first heard the news about her ex-husband Chester.
Samantha is honest and vulnerable about her life with Chester
“I’m very honest and vulnerable about what we experienced that day and the days after,” she tells People magazine. “That’s part of the healing. I want to share it. Because I know he touched so many people worldwide, and it’s such a worldwide topic. Even if you’re not a fan of my ex-husband’s bands, there’s really two different audiences here.”
She’s speaking of loved ones dying by suicide. The life coach, now 48, says that after Bennington’s death, a friend wrote to her and said “Welcome to the club.” ” I said, ‘What club? I don’t want to be part of any club.’ She said, ‘No one does, and I’m so sorry you’re going through this, but we’re here to support each other so reach out anytime.’ So there is a huge support system worldwide. We’re not alone. We can get through these adversities together. I really want the reader to understand that.”
Draven, Chester’s son, did the artwork
Bennington, whose son Draven did the artwork for her book cover, says the memoir isn’t just about her relationship with Chester, but a reflection on her entire life.
As Linkin Park began to get famous, she was there every step of the way. “I never doubted him for a second,” she says of his fame. “I always knew we were going to get there so I was prepared for it. But it’s not as glam as some people think. It’s a lot of hard work. Some days you wake up in a different state, other days in a different country. It’s exhausting. But would I do it all over again? In a heartbeat!”
Love letters to myself
As for why she chose now to write the memoir, she says it was actually in the works for a long time. “I had to emotionally heal from a lot of things,” she says. “I decided to release it now because with the way the world is now, I feel like the whole world needs healing. There’s something I discovered with the writing process — it’s very healing to write down your thoughts and reflect. That’s how I came up with the title — it’s love letters to myself, as well as others. There’s some really special letters in there.”
Falling Love Notes: Memories of a Rock Star Wife is available for pre-order now and will be released Nov. 24Where to find Shower for the Soul